yesterday i had an interview. it went very well i might say. and the place seems like a friendly enviroment.. i like it... i think. I have a second interview today so wish me luck.. cuz there's only 2. but anyways... *sighs* theres still nuthin but more drama to come... i just wish all of it could be over.. and the sad part about it is that its not even ABOUT me.. but i can't help that it effects me anyways cuz its dealin with close friends... SO NEWAYS.. i've developed a plan for the next 4 months to a year... its a good plan. its basically a plan a plan b sorta thing.. but i believe it will work.. i just need to get a few things stabalized and ill be set :D

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MOOD: sad...



*sighs* ok..so i dont know wut to do.. the question is, do i stay or do i go? AGAIN i am in greenville and YES the back of the head situation is the same... i miss my mom... i think being away from her is too much to handle. but the thing is, i cant find work in columbia... and if i want to make money then greenville is the best thing for me. but things are just so... GAH! read my last entry on that one.. so the thing is.. i can work my but off and use my mom as a motivation on getting a car that way i can go down there whenever i want and wont miss her so much you know? GAH! y'd she have to move to columbia... i want her to come bak here.. they've been talkin about that anywayz.... it would make things SO much easier.. i just need to grow up cuz after tech i'll be going off to college and actually staying at a dorm.. then how will i feel about that? It'll be almost the same... but the only thing is, i WONT be able to just up and leave... yes, i AM a mama's girl.... growing up is just too hard... i feel like im being forced into adolescence. SHIT... where's my mariah carey cd's... i could use her right now.. :(

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i've heard it all.. the bad, the good. the beautiful and the ugly. I know wut to distinguish as truth even if i dont want to believe it. The fact of the matter is that there are indeed ugly ppl in this world; some of them change their ways, while others follow a path not lead by god. My conclusion is: you can't help someone who doesn't want to be helped. If they want to be helped, they need to first convince themselves and pull themselves through. Its a 2 way process. They can either choose one road or the other...but the discision is theirs.. you can't make that choice for them. So if they choose the wrong path its up to them to find their way out of the darkness. You can offer a hand to guide them, but they'll need to find their own light... They carry the wait of the world but refuse to admit how heavy it is; and i share the burden bc i care that much. If only they would let me lend them a shoulder to lift some of it off....

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MOOD: EXTATIC yet PISSED && SAD in a way

my god-daughter clara abigal was finally born august 13th at 2am!!! i am so frikkin happy and she couldn't be cuter!!!!! ah! but omigosh the drama that i've been through. i just wish ppl didnt have to be such fucking assholes you know? just.. i dont know. and i also wish that ppl didnt have to sugar coat things to realize that they dont taste good you know what i mean? but im not even gonna get into that story right now. lemme just say this... i want her to wake up... but anyways.. so here are some pics of my beautiful god-daughter!! i love her so much.

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